Look it's LJ..So besides the extreme low number of people who actually go through this site and the random spammers that will try and post viruses on my comments, I'm pretty sure no one will be reading this. I told myself after about 2008 or 2009 that I was going to post about my 2002-2003 postings and how they were and all of that but things got in the way (and I also forgot that I had posted them), so I guess the way to celebrate my 10th year of having this thing, I'll look back and post about my thoughts and feelings on what I wrote and how I feel about them now.
So, I've been looking back at my older posts and holy crap that was a pain to read through. Not only was I annoying, but I didn't seem to notice people were making fun of me for it. So two things came across my mind when I see those posts, first I get crazy angry at how everyone was treating me and how everyone talked about me to the point of me writing another post instead of this one and flipping out on everyone and then secondly, I realize I brought it upon myself. I'll be posting about both. I mean for Gods sake the post that garnered 1000+ comments saying how annoying I was, was quite frankly one of the most screwed up things I've ever have been a part of and I was like an absent minded fool for half of it (and yes I know it was really only about 200 comments that were truly just about me, but the fact still stands). Believe me when I say that not only was that a terrible thing I was a part of, it was a horrible reminder of how I used to be.
While I can't say this with 100% accuracy, I do know that I would have posted less if I ever realized how much of a dumbass I was being. Stupid posts of "I'm at 100 posts now, more later" and "I'm just trying to beat Janel now, so I'm going to go to 110 posts"..seriously? Jesus that was dumb.
Unfortunately, there are still some of those aspects of my life that I do that still are annoying people..I've learned that at work now when I try to talk and people just shut me off or just flat out make fun of me (that really pisses me off too). Using the saying "I'm working on it" phrase I know I probably said over the years, it's something that I need to work on. For the most part the people I know these days smile and nod and I get the picture, but back then I didn't and no one seemed to do anything other than poke fun at me for it. Looking back, does that piss me off? Yes it does.
Now to the other part..Seeing now the "Shut Up Chris" posts and comments and that 1000+ comment post about how sorry Justin was that he gave me a LJ code (even though it was probably close to about 200ish comments that were just dealing with me) really just pisses me off. For one reason or another, I didn't take the damn hint and I realize that now, but I mean the constant barrage of things you guys said to me during the whole thing was totally nasty. I'm sure everyone was getting a real kick out of saying those things to me and me respond with some line breaks and exclamation points. I'm also positive that when if I even tried to stand up for myself, that wouldn't have happened or if it did, it would have been quickly put out. I don't know, besides the obvious "it was easy" comment, why instead of telling me straight up, I was told passive-aggressively. I would have been hurt, but I would have gotten over it. Now to the people who are reading this now and thinking, "why didn't he say these things back then instead of saying them now?"..and didn't read the top of my post..Well it's simple, for a few years, I completely forgot that I had posted borderline insane things and those comments were said about me.
In the end, I guess the only reason why I'm even posting this and putting this on here is to just have it out for the world to see. I may have not been the most "compelling" person to talk to, I know I bored some people straight out of their minds, but I know at the end of it all, some of you guys at least still bothered to talk to me. If this pisses someone off, so be it, if not, that's fine too. I just felt I needed to get this off my chest.
So I guess that's all I have to say. Not sure when I'll post again, but knowing me, it'll be sometime next year, so I hope everyone enjoys 2012.
-Chris
So, I've been looking back at my older posts and holy crap that was a pain to read through. Not only was I annoying, but I didn't seem to notice people were making fun of me for it. So two things came across my mind when I see those posts, first I get crazy angry at how everyone was treating me and how everyone talked about me to the point of me writing another post instead of this one and flipping out on everyone and then secondly, I realize I brought it upon myself. I'll be posting about both. I mean for Gods sake the post that garnered 1000+ comments saying how annoying I was, was quite frankly one of the most screwed up things I've ever have been a part of and I was like an absent minded fool for half of it (and yes I know it was really only about 200 comments that were truly just about me, but the fact still stands). Believe me when I say that not only was that a terrible thing I was a part of, it was a horrible reminder of how I used to be.
While I can't say this with 100% accuracy, I do know that I would have posted less if I ever realized how much of a dumbass I was being. Stupid posts of "I'm at 100 posts now, more later" and "I'm just trying to beat Janel now, so I'm going to go to 110 posts"..seriously? Jesus that was dumb.
Unfortunately, there are still some of those aspects of my life that I do that still are annoying people..I've learned that at work now when I try to talk and people just shut me off or just flat out make fun of me (that really pisses me off too). Using the saying "I'm working on it" phrase I know I probably said over the years, it's something that I need to work on. For the most part the people I know these days smile and nod and I get the picture, but back then I didn't and no one seemed to do anything other than poke fun at me for it. Looking back, does that piss me off? Yes it does.
Now to the other part..Seeing now the "Shut Up Chris" posts and comments and that 1000+ comment post about how sorry Justin was that he gave me a LJ code (even though it was probably close to about 200ish comments that were just dealing with me) really just pisses me off. For one reason or another, I didn't take the damn hint and I realize that now, but I mean the constant barrage of things you guys said to me during the whole thing was totally nasty. I'm sure everyone was getting a real kick out of saying those things to me and me respond with some line breaks and exclamation points. I'm also positive that when if I even tried to stand up for myself, that wouldn't have happened or if it did, it would have been quickly put out. I don't know, besides the obvious "it was easy" comment, why instead of telling me straight up, I was told passive-aggressively. I would have been hurt, but I would have gotten over it. Now to the people who are reading this now and thinking, "why didn't he say these things back then instead of saying them now?"..and didn't read the top of my post..Well it's simple, for a few years, I completely forgot that I had posted borderline insane things and those comments were said about me.
In the end, I guess the only reason why I'm even posting this and putting this on here is to just have it out for the world to see. I may have not been the most "compelling" person to talk to, I know I bored some people straight out of their minds, but I know at the end of it all, some of you guys at least still bothered to talk to me. If this pisses someone off, so be it, if not, that's fine too. I just felt I needed to get this off my chest.
So I guess that's all I have to say. Not sure when I'll post again, but knowing me, it'll be sometime next year, so I hope everyone enjoys 2012.
-Chris
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